I’ve been more silent lately. I’ve been reflecting and thinking, thinking and reflecting–about my tongue. Sometimes my tongue gets me into SO MUCH TROUBLE! I am a verbal processor and that can be good and bad at the same time. When I hear myself talk out loud forming the words of my thoughts, at times my tongue rushes ahead with careless words out the door of my lips and before I know it, I’ve done it again! Instead of worshipping with my tongue and giving life to others, I fall short, talk and talk, explain more and more until I’ve dug a great big pit that is hard to climb out of. You see, getting the words out helps me to think, it’s like having a conversation with myself which is okay if no one will be injured by my wrestling of contrary thoughts.
Honestly, at times I think I have been prideful in processing out loud. I’ve thought it to be a rather brilliant quality, but lately, oh lately, not so sure. I’ve admired people who can articulate quickly and say more with less. I’ve wished I could be so agile verbally or smarter with my responses, but I am not. I need time to process. I need to muse, to roll over the thoughts in my mind before I can speak smartly–more like, speak with wisdom and discretion. But I don’t do that, instead there is no margin between my thoughts and my tongue and there needs to be more often. God is showing me this so clearly because I’ve blown it the past few months out of hurt, anger, tiredness and frustration. Worshipping with my tongue is learning to control what comes out of my mouth no matter how much my emotions are churning. Learning to guard the thoughts that might turn into a rush of words and practice self-control measuring them to make sure they are full of life and delivered at the proper time is wisdom keeping me for the most part out of trouble.
Proverbs 15:2 says, “The tongue of the wise utters knowledge wisely, but the mouth of the self-confident fool pours out folly.” Ouch! That hurts, but that is what needs to happen to this verbal processor. Proverbs is full of verses on the tongue and how to keep it in check. I am adopting this verse and asking God to help me acquire the discipline found in Proverbs 31:26, “She opens her mouth in skillful and godly Wisdom, and on her tongue is the law of kindness [giving counsel and instruction].” AMP
I want to worship not just when I sing on Sunday mornings, in the car or in the privacy of my home during my devotions. I want to worship with my tongue and the words I speak, for my words to be an act of worship reflecting a heart that is in love with Jesus.